Learning to Believe in Yourself and Dealing with Anxiety

posted by Misfit September 5, 2018 7 Comments

HELLO MISFITIANS!

As promised – here’s a quick update!

In the past couple of weeks – life has seemed to be crazy (but in a good way). As some of you know – I really struggle with anxiety. Putting myself out there sometimes is tough. But recently – after working through counseling – I’ve started to really get a hold of my anxiety and my overall outlook on life.

What’s up with the table?

Well, I purchased this table at a thrift store nearly 2 years ago. At the time I was really depressed – knowing that I was about to go in for surgery. I was honestly just trying to get my mind off things and do some fun shopping. Upon seeing this table – I knew I had to have it – but the owner didn’t want to sell it to me b/c she thought it was too filthy. Me (my anxiety self) usually would have backed down – but not this time. I felt like this table and me were connected. Yeah, it was covered in oil stains and just plain filth from a garage of some sorts. Yeah it had a couple of busted features – but it was solid wood and a good design. It’s bones (or inner character) were there and I knew deep down it had a better life in store if I could just get my hands on it. After some hard negotiating – the owner finally gave in. So for a mere $20 – I loaded the dirty table into my SUV. For 2 years – I dreamed of refurbishing it to it’s original grandeur. And this week is the week. Since – I don’t have alot of time during the day to tackle this project – I’m spending my late nights sanding and removing every old bit of muck. Why? Because this table was the first step to me conquering my anxiety so long ago.

What I’ve learned…

I find it interesting how things sometimes come in full circle – as now I’m using my voice to pitch new business ideas. I believed in the table and now I believe in myself. So I challenge you – believe in yourself when others don’t – because there is beauty locked deep down and it’s just waiting to be revealed.

 

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7 Comments

Darlene September 6, 2018 at 3:34 pm

Wow, I really feel you here is girlfriend. I suffer both depression and anxiety and have found it gets in the way of my art. I need to find an outlet for it, like you did. Thanks for sharing. Q

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Diane September 6, 2018 at 3:47 pm

Love the story and idea of the table. Makes me think of something I’ve been putting off and maybe now is the time for some artsy crafty/me time. Good therapy. Thank you.

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Carol September 6, 2018 at 5:41 pm

Oh Carrie, thank you so much for sharing this personal information. I can relate. Now let me give you another perspective. Here I sit in my home doing nothing (I’m retired). I play at things, but tire of them when I realize that they’re not very good. And so I watch fabulous artists on YouTube, like Carrie the Misfitian Queen! I am in awe of your talent, and your ability to do so much work–not just the art, but the filming and planning and editing, etc. I see a woman who can accomplish anything. You have a long-term vision and you make it happen at the appropriate time. I very much admire these qualities. I think everyone struggles through life, but you are overcoming things. That is success in my book. Best wishes.

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Cindy September 6, 2018 at 10:24 pm

Hi Carrie, thank you so much for being brave and sharing your story. I suffer from anxiety too. Watching your videos and your sweet, kind , gentle way is so uplifting. I am sure I speak for all of the fellow “misfits” when I say keep goin, keep moving forward, keep making videos for us to devour and enjoy, keep working on the table! We cannot wait to see it, warts and all so to speak. Thank you again for all you do.

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Mary September 8, 2018 at 2:28 am

Such a sweet story, Carrie. Thanks for sharing with us! I love your sincerity.

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Joan September 9, 2018 at 2:16 pm

My despression, anxiety, panic has pulled me away from my love of creating. I understand your feelings. Having a feeling of disconnection an finding the path back can be like a merry-go-round. I’ve so many unfinished art, that I wish I could complete without anxiety an failure. Unread books piling so high and trying to except I’m good at what I do an that I’m love myself first. You give me inspiration, I know I need to take a step. Keeping going, you know what you want to accomplish.

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Dominique Paradis October 15, 2018 at 8:29 am

oh how I have missed your “chats” and “teaching” of late… every Sunday I check my You tube channel hoping to get a notice that there is a video available to be viewed….. a cup of tea in hand I settle in to watch and enjoy one of your teaching sessions…Alas no new notices…. I hope everything is okay, just wanted to know you are missed and loved…

You have a following and I know we are all hoping you will eventually return to us, your “students and friends” miss you and send hugs lots of hugs… Doe

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