In the past couple of weeks – life has seemed to be crazy (but in a good way). As some of you know – I really struggle with anxiety. Putting myself out there sometimes is tough. But recently – after working through counseling – I’ve started to really get a hold of my anxiety and my overall outlook on life.
Well, I purchased this table at a thrift store nearly 2 years ago. At the time I was really depressed – knowing that I was about to go in for surgery. I was honestly just trying to get my mind off things and do some fun shopping. Upon seeing this table – I knew I had to have it – but the owner didn’t want to sell it to me b/c she thought it was too filthy. Me (my anxiety self) usually would have backed down – but not this time. I felt like this table and me were connected. Yeah, it was covered in oil stains and just plain filth from a garage of some sorts. Yeah it had a couple of busted features – but it was solid wood and a good design. It’s bones (or inner character) were there and I knew deep down it had a better life in store if I could just get my hands on it. After some hard negotiating – the owner finally gave in. So for a mere $20 – I loaded the dirty table into my SUV. For 2 years – I dreamed of refurbishing it to it’s original grandeur. And this week is the week. Since – I don’t have alot of time during the day to tackle this project – I’m spending my late nights sanding and removing every old bit of muck. Why? Because this table was the first step to me conquering my anxiety so long ago.
I find it interesting how things sometimes come in full circle – as now I’m using my voice to pitch new business ideas. I believed in the table and now I believe in myself. So I challenge you – believe in yourself when others don’t – because there is beauty locked deep down and it’s just waiting to be revealed.